In every heart beat: Beyond broken

In every heart beat: Beyond broken: "I told myself I wasn't going to cry, I told myself it was only going to hurt for a little while. But the effects are more horrific than expe..."

Beyond broken

I told myself I wasn't going to cry, I told myself it was only going to hurt for a little while. But the effects are more horrific than expected and I just don't know which road to take. I have been through so many obstacles, is it wrong for me to feel that he was the only filling to the emptiness inside my heart. I feel broken and the pieces have yet to be restored.  I try to picture myself moving on but right now that seems to be fantasy and reality is my heart is nothing without his love in it. I miss those words "I love you" being said almost always. After a while I actually became tired of begging for his heart back because if it's truly not with me anymore then what the hell must I do or can I do to retrieve it. I feel so blank without him. My mind is a dark place, without that together forever feeling, I almost thought it was true. I feel cheated almost let-down, I never was given a chance just given up on constantly without a thought. It makes me wonder was I that bad, did I make you that unhappy. Which is impossible since i thrived to make u feel exactly the opposite. I am beginning to feel like I am unworthy of feeling happiness.  Like I don't deserve to feel loved. I sit here just uneasy, determined to get back the love that seems to be draining, and drifting away, and for a love that will forever stay the same.