Breaking up is like losing a part of your heart

          Sitting here thinking, is this real? Are we really over? how can this be?  I can remember that night like it was yesterday. See I never thought there could be an end to this night and day love, but trust it can happen when you least expect it. The words " Were not working" or " Were not clicking play over and over in my brain like a constant migraine. I keep thinking its a dream but its never a dream just a nightmare that only some can wake up from. Just try not to blame yourself even though in the end there is no way of avoiding that feeling that its all your fault believe me its not. I held on strong even when I felt like all odds were down. I never gave up. When you see the other person just giving in it kills more than mike myers in "holloween" lol. You sit there and you try to take everyones advice but most of the time they never say exactly what you want to hear. They end up saying stuff like " its gonna be ok, there is someone way better out there for you", but your thought is "I don't want anyone else or how the hell you know?". Or you have the religious friend and they end up saying stuff like "Only person you need is God" and your thought on this is "I love the lord, but can he hold me and keep me warm at night?" See I went through all of this. I went through long nights laying awake and stearing at the ceiling, just praying and hoping maybe this man is gonna call me and say "I'm sorry I don't know what I was thinking, I love you boo". "HA!" Please it never happened. I waited until the fone called me and said "Can you stop stearing at me, your making me nervous".  My heart still feels empty this feeling is something I wouldnt wish on the worst of my enemies. What I can say is the moment you realize, that maybe, just maybe, this person does not know what they just lost, you start to feel a lil brand new. Just hold on, everything is going to be just fine. See if I was smart, that night that my man said lets just take a couple of days off, I wouldve just listened hung up the phone and went to sleep, instead of trying so hard to fix something minor than turning it into something major like a break-up. Maybe he would still be my man. Questions I ask myself all day and all night. Don't spend your time wondering get out the house, go somewhere, go out, do something, cause the worst thing you can do is stay in the house feeling sorry for yourself. Try to stay happy even though breaking up is like losing a part of your heart. Any ways Keep on smiling, one smile can lead to a day of happiness.....